God is good and gracious.
Jacob Luis Gonzales
A 24 year old man from Chicago who had been made alive to proclaim what it looks like to truly live.
I’ll never forget the feeling when I got home. I felt hollow, sick, dirty. I was a Christian now. I knew better. I wasn’t supposed to do that anymore! On top of that, I felt even more shame because I had planned what I did and had many opportunities to say no. I’d never had this happen before, and I’ve never had it happen since. The shame and guilt were so palpable that I literally became sick. I stayed up until six o’clock that morning throwing up, feeling so dirty and worthless and thinking I had completely failed God and that he must hate me now. (page 133)When was the last time that you read a Christian author explicitly tell you the low points of their lives? When was the last time that you read someone open up their lives for their readers to see that they aren't perfect and above the point of the book? Probably never.
My worth, my identity, and my satisfaction were all wrapped up in her, and when I lost control of the situation and control of her, it felt like my god was being taken from me. That’s the truth with any idol—it will rock you to your core when it leaves. When a good thing leaves you, it might make you sad. But when an ultimate thing leaves you, you feel like you can’t live anymore. (page 115)My first thought was, "What, if it left my life, would drive me to think I could not survive without it?"
God doesn’t hide sin. In fact, he put it on display two thousand years ago in a splintered T-shaped piece of wood. Jesus came down to earth, lived the perfect life we never could have, and died the death we should have. And every drop of blood that poured from him was another drop of love falling on us.
Have you ever felt like your sin should be paid for?
It has been.
All our sins.
All our filth.
All our guilt.
All our shame.
(Page 135).
The minute we trust in Jesus, our standing becomes his standing. We no longer represent ourselves; Jesus represents us. Our faith isn’t earned. It’s counted. When we trust in Jesus, God then looks at us the same way he looks at Jesus. Even when we mess up, God looks at us and says, “Pure, spotless, blameless, perfect, holy, my child, you’re free!”
That’s what changes a heart and what stirs us to worship.
That’s what changes someone’s life.
You don’t have to keep trying.
You don’t have to hide your sin.You just have to trust in Jesus who exchanged himself for you at the cross. (Page 137-138).
The word worship is defined by glory and thanksgiving. We are worshiping when we give glory to something. Whatever we give glory to, we sacrifice for. Sometimes that’s sex; sometimes that’s our jobs; sometimes that’s our reputations. But we all worship something, and we all put pseudo-gods on the thrones of our hearts.
When Jesus died on the cross, he completely reversed this curse, allowing God to retake his proper place as the one true God of our lives.Go out and buy this book. I know that I saw Jesus in a new light and in a new way, and I know that if you commit to reading this with an open heart that God will shatter what you thought it meant to love God and follow Jesus Christ.
(Page 168).
Just finished this book tonight. I received an advanced copy, and I am pretty sure that everyone should buy this when it comes out next week. Read it, share it, and be blessed by Jefferson Bethke's writing style and authenticity that jumps from each page. Having met this guy before, I respect him as a brother in Christ, a poet, a speaker, and now a writer. Check this out! #jesusisgreater